verse 1 (yung flex): swear i can't take this pain inside of my brain it's driving me insane, i feel it pulsing all throughout my veins i try to tell myself it's all in my head but i just wish i was dead, and shit like that is better left unsaid i try to ask myself "what's wrong with me?" i feel this consantly, i just wan' fall into eternal sleep i close my eyes and then i say me a prayer i don't know where i'll end up, but i just hope that it's much better there. and fuck this feeling, you can have it nothing i have ever felt could fucking match it feels like i just can't break this habit this shit feels so anti-climactic verse 2 (ghostboiisdead): all this pain i can't contain i can't explain the thoughts inside my brain they reach. they claw i can't hold on i'm trying not to slip, but i'm losing my grip i smash, i slash i try to fucking crash i'm going so insane, someone tell me i'm okay tell me i'm okay tell me i'm okay i just want someone to tell me i'm okay.

sometimes i fucking hate breathing know it takes some time, can't fix this shit in just an evening but damn i hate this feeling, just to wake up, need a reason hate being so angry, damn i hate me, knuckles bleeding lose my voice up on these tracks just so i can release it and sometimes i feel happy, it's deceiving 'cause it don't take much time until i'm right back to depleting damn i hate this hurt, i hate this earth, man y'all can keep it 'cause ain't no way i'll be happy alive with all these demons i wanna take my fucking life but even though this would be over, i can't make my family cry don't what else i can do at this point except just ask "why?" what the fuck did my ass do to deserve the shit in my life? maybe i'm a piece of shit and i'm just lying to myself i can't even love me, how i expect it from someone else? they say money can't buy hapiness, so i don't want the wealth i just wanna be fulfilled, i'm sick of feeling overwhelmed. (hook) don't know if i wanna die fast, or die slow long as i die, i hate this life, that's all that i know i just want my mind back, the one that i know don't know myself, i need some help, i'm on a tightrope don't know if i wanna die fast, or die slow long as i die, i hate this life, that's all that i know i just want my mind back, the one that i know fuck this shit, i hate this shit, i'm on a tightrope

fucked up world fucked up earth fucked up life fucked up worth fucked up kid with a fucked up mind writing fucked up songs with these fucked up rhymes fucked up bitch fucked up clique fucked up teens doing fucked up shit fucked up angst fucked up brains fucked up paths fucked up lanes you wanna fuck me like an animal you'd like to burn me on the inside you like to think that i'm a perfect drug just know that nothing you will bring you closer to me

if you want it, then you got it fuck this life, this shit so toxic i don't fuck with anybody 'cept the faces in my pocket it say slipknot on my wallet got that shit to hold my profit pockets fat, them bitches brolic they calling me the young prophet they like boy you on to something fuck these bitches, they get nothing fuck these niggas, they stay fronting hella stressed, so i stay blunted roll one up, and then i face it fuck these niggas, they stay hating you ain't shit my nigga, face it shoutout shini, bitch that's gang shit shoutout deathcamp, that's the set i put 5 bands up on your neck if you wan' talk down on my brothers, harm your ass with no regret bitch i don't do no empty threats just like a pit, i'm at your neck i just be chilling, ain't no sweating til you get my ass upset

sometimes i wish i was the skeleton on my necklace still bitter and fucked up, man shoutout to my exes four fucking relationships, and just now learned my lesson all i got is hope to help me cope with my depression i'm fucking insecure, i don't love a thing about myself edge used to be straight, now i don't give a fuck about my health but that's exactly what i get for not worrying 'bout my health i feel like three days grace, i swear i can't escape this fucking hell i'm standing on the edge, i'm 'bout to fall, can't catch a break but i realize that's the only way i'll ever feel okay 'cause all these panic attacks i'm having every fucking day is the only fucking imma ever clear my brain isolation the only way i don't get my feelings hurt but i'm sad all the fucking time, so i can't even infer sometimes i just feel like my whole fucking life under a curse sometimes i just feel like this shit only steady getting worse sometimes i wish i was the skeleton on my necklace god come strike me down to the ground and just leave me breathless all i got is hope to help me cope with my depression chemical imbalances equal to lethal weapons sometimes i wish i was the skeleton on my necklace god come strike me down to the ground and just leave me breathless all i got is hope to help me cope with my depression chemical imbalances equal to lethal weapons

(change) you said that you know exactly what i am going through, but you were nowhere to be found the moment i needed you, and you told me that i don't have the strength to hold myself upright, but now that i help myself, don't need your help getting through this fight no more. no more no more (no i don't need this) no more no more (don't wanna see this) no more no more (no i don't need this) no more no more (don't wanna see this) you were all i had left, thought i could confide in you, but i was wrong and now i feel like i have nothing else to help he except these songs hate being selfless, you're all so selfish, but i will change, yes i assure but don't come back when you realize that i don't need this no more. no more no more (no i don't need this) no more no more (don't wanna see this) no more no more (no i don't need this) no more no more (don't wanna see this)

bury all your secrets in my skin come away with innocence and leave me with my sins the air around me still feels like a cage and love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again so if you love me let me go and run away before I know my heart is just too dark to care i can't destroy what isn't there deliver me into my fate if I'm alone I cannot hate i don't deserve to have you ooh, my smile was taken long ago if I can change I hope I never know i still press your letters to my lips and cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss i couldn't face a life without your lights but all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fight so save your breath, i will not care i think i made it very clear you couldn't hate enough to love is that supposed to be enough? i only wish you weren't my friend then I could hurt you in the end i never claimed to be a saint ooh, my own was banished long ago it took the death of hope to let you go so break yourself against my stones and spit your pity in my soul you never needed any help you sold me out to save yourself and I won't listen to your shame you ran away, you're all the same angels lie to keep control ooh, my love was punished long ago if you still care don't ever let me know if you still care don't ever let me know